instead
of thinking
you’re gone
I choose to feel
you
here
feel your presence
feeling you
with me
I will be present
present
to your love
loving me
loving you
though
you’re not here
knowing
knowing you
are

with me

I know
I’d rather feel that

instead

he would say
I love you mom
thank you for
watching over
me so lovingly
he would tell me why
he’s always looking up
at me
snuggling near me
making eye contact
unlike the othersif he could talk
he’d tell me why
his little paw reaches out
to touch mine
why he gets under
the covers with me at night
why he tilts his head
to get my attention
why that funny crying sound
that makes me laugh
always preceeds
bringing me toys
seemingly left as a present
at the foot of the bedif he could talk
he’d say
thank you
for saving his life
for putting up with all
his stubborn ways
for so earnestly
figuring out how to keep
giving him medicine
day after
day
after
day
he doesn’t
need to

talk

(a poem I never wanted to write)aching
emptiness
surrounds
my broken heart
today I lost
my baby
my friend
a part of me
today
I let go
a part of
myself
I wanted
to hold on to
forever
having to let go
of the hold
saving a life
mine
my little cat companion
my angel
that now
watches over me

the sorrow
of that day
will be over
soon
the memory
of that day
will fade
soon
my heart
will stop hurting
crying out
for you
not forgetting
not that

soon

where’s my angel
the first thing I thought
when I opened my eyes
where’s my angel
are you here
though far
from my sight
in heaven
watching over me
where all angels arethat’s
where my angel is

everytime

I light a candle
I think of you
knowing
even though
you are gone
from my sight
your spirit lives on
the flame reminds me
though we aren’t together
we are still connected
when I see
the candle’s light
I remember
you
knowing
you are here
because
the flame lives on
in my heart
forever
everytime
I light a candle

everytime

instead
of thinking
you’re gone
I choose to feel
you
here
feel your presence
feeling you
with me
I will be present
present
to your love
loving me
loving you
though
you’re not here
knowing
knowing you
arewith me

I know
I’d rather feel that

instead

you have
all the time
in the world
take it
time waits
for no one
go for it
time will tell
express it
time time time
goes by so slowly
so take your time
take all the time
you need
use it
it’s time
you haven’t got that much
time
finish it
cause time’s
running out
make a run for it
time is of the essence
give it
time
don’t you know

time’s a wastin’

so be it

it’s about

TIME

GrandFather, Look at our brokeness.

We know that in all creation

Only the human family

Has strayed from the sacred way.

We know that we are the ones

Who are divided

And we are the ones

Who must come back together

To walk in the sacred way.

GrandFather

Sacred One

Teach us love, compassion, honor

That we may heal the earth

And heal each other.

These poems are from Dawn Yankeelov. Her daughter Annmarie was killed on 14 May, 2006. I believe this was Mothers Day. >More…